Hi guys i just thought id post about something i found hard to deal with which was - accepting that i was gay and trying to be "normal"
I had trouble with this because i thought that it wasn't normal to be gay and have feelings for another man.
Before youtube or support sites on the internet i had no clue on how to accept or to help with something i wanted an answer so i found it nearly impossible to deal with my feelings that i had stored away at the back of mind
I Couldnt never tell anyone as that would have been bad because there would had been questions asked that i couldnt and didnt want to answer.
The Problem with supressing your feelings or hiding away from your true self is dangerous and will lead you to going crazy with all of these thoughts in your head.
I thought wen i was trying to learn about what gay meant, i was obessed with a certain guy who i thought i was in love with and i was obessed with him wanting him to be mine and i did some pretty awful things which i wont go into but it was bad.
Another problem is other people who happen to know your gay or anything and bully you and scream abuse at you which i ad and still get it now but i choose to ingore it or try to block it out and get on with my life.
If i had any advice for someone who was struggling with their sexuality then i would advise speaking to someone you can trust ,researching information online as there is some brilliant websites with great advice and answers to some of the questions you might have
Also if you watch youtube check out this channel http://www.youtube.com/user/wickydkewl
i watch thes videos and find them agreat deal of help of dealing with my sexuality and stuff
Thanks for Reading
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