Problems Accepting Your Gay ?

Hi guys i just thought id post about something i found hard to deal with which was - accepting that i was gay and trying to be "normal"

I had trouble with this because i thought that it wasn't normal to be gay and have feelings for another man.
Before youtube or support sites on the internet i had no clue on how to accept or to help with something i wanted an answer so i found it nearly impossible to deal with my feelings that i had stored away at the back of mind
I Couldnt never tell anyone as that would have been bad because there would had been questions asked that i couldnt and didnt want to answer.

The Problem with supressing your feelings or hiding away from your true self is dangerous and will lead you to going crazy with all of these thoughts in your head.

I thought wen i was trying to learn about what gay meant, i was obessed with a certain guy who i thought i was in love with and i was obessed with him wanting him to be mine and i did some pretty awful things which i wont go into but it was bad.

Another problem is other people who happen to know your gay or anything and bully you and scream abuse at you which i ad and still get it now but i choose to ingore it or try to block it out and get on with my life.

If i had any advice for someone who was struggling with their sexuality then i would advise speaking to someone you can trust ,researching information online as there is some brilliant websites with great advice and answers to some of the questions you might have

Also if you watch youtube check out this channel http://www.youtube.com/user/wickydkewl
i watch thes videos and find them agreat deal of help of dealing with my sexuality and stuff

Thanks for Reading

Hayden's Worst Look

Somebody call the Fashion Police pleaseeeeee..... OMG whats wrong w/ u Hayden? Marchesa dressnya yang dipake ke acara amfAR's Cinema Against AIDS di Cannes sih fine-fine aja, tapi yang salah adalah 1. make upnya. kalau mau pake make up pale, jangan kayak gak pake make up dong. gue jadi curiga dia gak pake make up.
2. rambutnya biasa bangeeeet
3. kayaknya dia lupa pake aksesoris,jadi keliatan terlalu plain
4. yang paling salah adalah dia pake strapless dress! karena kulitnya belang,liat deh ada bekas tali bikininya di pundak & dadanya. ewwww......

Gossip Girl Fashion

Seperti yang telah kita ketahui Gossip Girl Season 2 udah berakhir tanggal 18 Mei 2009 lalu.Premier Season 3 nya pun tanggal 31 Agustus nanti. Ini ada beberapa foto favorit gue,enjoy :)
P.S : FYI, Gossip Girl akan mengeluarkan Clothing Line nya Oktober 2009 nanti. jadi gak sabar!

MUST HAVE ITEMS! #2

1. Tulip Skirt

2. Cocktail Ring

3. Pink Skirt

4. Louis Vuitton Sandals

5. Denim Jacket

6. One Shoulder Swimsuit

7. Metal Necklace

8. Cuff Bracelet

9. Laddered Legging

10. Feather Earrings

Fashion Faceoff : Jennifer Behr Headband

Headband yang satu ini emang keren banget. as we know Nicole Richie udah memakai Jennifer Behr Headband ini saat September 2008 lalu ke acara Fashion Show nya Marc Jacobs Spring 2009.sedangkan Paris Hilton memakainya beberapa saat lalu dan Paris kayaknya masih harus banyak belajar supaya lebih bagus memakai headband ini dengan her EX BFF Nicole. jadi menurut gue Nicole yang menang dengan mudah.

Dolly Rockers - Je Suis Une Dolly

I Was listening to Scott Mills show on radio1 and they played this new song that he liked and this new girl band called The Dolly Rockers.

Here is the Song i am talking about



I just love this song. Its amzing and very catchy so go download it.

If you think they mite be familar its because they featured on the xfactor acouple of years ago



If You want more information on the Dolly Rockers You can Visit Their Myspace
The Dolly Rockers

Also Their Website

Dolly Rockers

Fashion Advice

Having a wardrobe crisis? tenang,kamu hanya pelu membongkar sedikit isi lemari bajumu.ini ada beberapa foto gue dan temen-temen gue untuk menginspirasikanmu.

di foto pertama gue ini,gue pake denim skirt,white t-shirt,anya bag,dan sepatu converse. gaya gue satu ini gue dapatkan dari Mischa Barton yg memadukan denim skirtnya dengan sepatu converse.

di foto yang ini gue pake kaos Zara,denim jacket punya sang mama,Mango jeans,Anya bag dan crossed sandals.

nah kalo yg ini temen gue namanya Arin,dia memakai purple t-shirt,jeans,slouch bag dan t-bar sandals. nah ini salah satu inspirasi buat kalian yang mau pakai slouch bag kayak Arin.

ini Candrika,dia memakai white t-shirt ,grey jeans,grey handbag dan white sandals. kalo kamu gak mau play w/ colors kamu bisa contoh gaya Candrika ini,its so simple.

ini Aida,dia memakai grey t-shirt,white Gucci handbag,jeans,leaf earrings (sayangnya gak keliatan) dan t-bar sandals. contoh deh gaya Aida,kalo kamu gak mau terlihat terlalu plain kayak Candrika tadi,kamu tiggal tambahin scarf untuk menambah warna,seperti yg Aida lakukan.

ini Tissa,dia memakai printed top,hoop necklace,rattan bag,levis' jeans dan choco crossed sandals. Tissa ini emang jago deh memadukan printed topnya dengan segala aksesorisnya.

Nah yang terakhir ini Amel,dia memakai white shirt,longchamp handbag,jeans dan red flat shoes. gaya ini emang casual banget tapi patut dicontoh karena,white shirt dan red flat shoes kalau dipadukan akan bagus.coba Amel memakai tas warna merah pasti akan lebih bagus lagi.

tips dari gue,kalau kamu lagi wardrobe crisis, kamu tinggal pakai 1 atau 2 barang yang lagi IN sekarang dan bermain dengan warna.semoga menginspirasikanmu, ciao.

Trend : Black Ripped Jeans

Para seleb Hollywood lagi kerajingan banget nih sama black ripped jeans. as we know yang mempopulerkan gaya ini adalah Agyness Deyn.but wait a sec,coba liat deh kacamatanya Fergie looks like Lady Gaga right?sebelumnya Paris Hilton juga pernah memakai kacamata model seperti ini. wah wah tambah banyak deh yang ngkutin Lady Gaga.okeee back to black ripped jeans,tips dari gue pake black ripped jeans ini bareng sama blazer dan heavy metal gems, pasti bakalan keren kayak Taylor Momsen di episode Gossip Girl yang 'the Warth of Con' (kalo gak salah hehe). oh iya sepatunya pake Dr.Martens biar tambah keren

Fashion Faceoff #4

Heidi Klum VS. Emma Roberts

Celine Dion VS. Lindsay Lohan

Pixie Lott - Mama Do

I was on youtube and i came across this song from a new artist called Pixie Lott.

She is being touted as the next big star to burst onto the music scene in 2009

Here is her debut single called Mama Do



This is a acoustic version of the song One Republic's Apologize.



Both songs sound amazing

Mama Do is released on June 8th

Official Youtube Page
http://www.youtube.co/user/pixieofficial

Her Website
http://www.pixielott.com

Eurovision Song Contest 2009 Results

So the Eurovision Song Contest 2009 is over so how did Jade Ewan do for the Uk?

Well she come 5th which is brilliant

heres her performance




The Winning song came from Norway
The Artist was Alexander Rybak
Song is called Fairytale
Heres the performance



The Winning song was the highest scoring song in all of the contest history scoring 387 points smashing the record set in 2006 by finland which as round the 300 mark

all new Sidekick Lx Launching Party

Take a look at who came out to walk the red carpet for T-Mobile Sidekick LX's launch held at Paramount Studios in Hollywood last night. Pink and Carey Hart (looking as cute as can be), Kim Kardashian, Ashlee Simpson, Pete Wentz, Amanda Bynes, DJ AM, Anna Faris, Nicky Hilton, Paris Hilton, Heidi Montag, and Kelly Osbourne.

Fashion Mistake

Sebebernya sih gak ada yang salah sama dressnya Hilary Duff,atau pun rambutnya dan clutch bagnya.Bahkan strappy ankle gladiator sandals nya keren banget. yang salah adalah pemilihan sepatunya,seharusnya dia gak pake strappy ankle gladiatornya karena membuat kakinya lebih pendek dan deep v-neck dressnya membuat Hilary lebih gendut.watch out girls,hati hati ya dalam pemilihan sepatu.

Boom Boom Pow - Black Eyed Peas

Hi The Black Eyed Peas Are Back !!!!!

Their New Music Sounds Amazing

The FIrst Song To Be Lifted From Their New Studio Album The E.N.D.(The Energy Never Dies)

Its Been Number 1 in The Usa For 5 weeks Now And It Is Set to Be Number 1 In The Uk On Sunday

Nicole's Worst Dress

ewwwwww 100x buat maxi dressnya Nicole Richie yg dipakenya di acara Launching jewelry linenya 'House of Harlow 1960' di Miami. im so sorry Nicole,tapi dress yg kamu pake sebenernya bagus, tapi...... print-nya? ewwww! membuat dress kamu kaya murahan. im so sorry Nicole. padahal aku tau kamu bisa tampil lebih baik dan lebih maksimal dari ini.

Trend : Pink Skirt

Para seleb Hollywood lagi menggemari pink skirt nih, terutama memakainya bareng leather jacket.wah gaya ini gampang di contek bgt nih, liat aja deh mereka pake pink skirt ini dengan atasan dan aksesoris warna hitam utk menonjolkan warna pink-nya tersebut. pink skirt ini bisa buat acara semi formal juga loh! buktinya Taylor Momsen pake di acara Launching toko Topshop di New York. atau buat hang out bareng temen atau date juga bisa,terserah kamu. seperti tadi yg gue bilang, yg jelas kuncinya cuma satu pakai aksesoris dan atasan yg berwana gelap utk menonjolkan warna pinknya.

Trend : Beaded White Gown

Drew Barrymore,Mischa Barton pada pakai beaded white gown ke red carpet. tapi yg paling gue suka sih gaunnya Drew,abis lucu bgt sih. dia juga mengaplikasikan gaunnya dengan aksesoris yg lucu tapi minus rambutnya, gue ga suka hehehe.

Fashion Faceoff #3

Kate Bosworth VS. Lucy Liu VS. Becky Newton

Booty Luv - Say It

This is the new Single From Booty Luv

Sounds amazing

This is the First Song To Be Lifted From Their Second Album

It Is Out On 3rd August 2009

New Trend : Neon Color

Neon color is IN fashionista. seperti gue udh kasih tau di post blog sebelumnya di Spring Trend 2009, Bright and Bold color.mengingat tren tahun 2008 lalu ada tren warna electric blue dan semacamnya,cari deh barang-barang kamu yg tahun 2008 lalu masih IN kalau di mix and match.
tips buat pakai Neon Color :

1. pakai neon color ini bareng aksesoris hitam supaya warnanya semakin mencolok

2. jangan ragu juga utk memakai warna Neon lainnya (just like color block). misalnya kamu pakai rok pink Neon terus kamu pakai luaran warna orange dan kaos hitam.

3. kalau kamu berkulit sawo matang dan kamu ga pede pakai neon color ini padahal kamu suka bgt, kamu bisa pakai kok. kamu tinggal maduin Neon color ini sama warna-warna nude,seperti khaki. (yang ini kamu bisa liat di teenvogue edisi April 2009)

check out Topshop,Mitchybell,and Alexander mcQueen for neon color